FUCK YEAHHH!! MUTHAFUCKING FREEDOM..

LONG FUCKING DUED!!

omg, i just noticed that this is a dead blog..

and my random ravings, or so it seems would only be understooded by some.

well well well, i should be doing my FYP shouldn't I?

ciao~

Mindless Adventure :)

WOO HOO!!!

3 more days till major freedommmmm~~

and and, about a week more till doomsday :s

diediediedie..

I've got my head up in the clouds,
and i don't wanna stay there.
not for now at least.
:(

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

haha, a little true-ish here and there.

"You have great potential, just need you to be mentally more resilient towards issues or matters that may sometimes bringy you down emotionally and affect your performance."

a little flaws here and there to work out.
In my 13 years or so of studying, I have never been so stressed out. Not even during PSLE or O levels, I still remember just before my science paper for PSLE, i went to play Red Alert 2 at my friends house, and during O levels we were supposed to study but ended up playing pool and on exam day, we went to my house to spot topics.
wowser~ now its a no bullshit stage, citations, bibliography, you name it, its a shit load.
and not to mention, just the perfect person to guide us along with the shitload. no further comments.
I'm suddenly so tired, so tired of it all.

i promise myself someday i would go to YellowStone National Park.
consperm.
check it out

okkk, now i'm in a mood to blog..
Outward Bound Singapore is really a great place to be, after seeing Faisal do his job and the other instructors, it kinda really pushes me to work towards it. I know preparation wouldn't be easy at all, after hearing Faisal talk about it. But, i'm the kind of guy that take things as they come and hopefully they're just nice for me to cope.
Nothing i say can describe the experience i had 1 week in OBS.
Outdoor Education, here I come!

boo ya~ i'm back home.
gee, OBS is totally a whole new thing, different methodology, different beliefs.
get to meet different people of different backgrounds, probably 4-5years later, I'll be there too!
I'm kind lazy to blog about things.. so well..
hahhaahaha, idk!!

KNN! du lan, my laptop crash taking everything inside it with it and Acer is just a money making muthafucka..kkkk, i've grieved enough. and its time to move on, but i'm still fucking pissed dawg~
FYP is coming, and I'm scared shitless although I show a i'm-not-scared-shitless face.
hahahahah, i did a camp with innotrek yesterday, with Ai Tong School. Primary school kids, they called me sexy galaxy, which changed to sexy gorilla later on. my gawd, Inno totally like crushed my principles. :(((
oh well, i skipped CCM today. K.O.-ed after i off my alarm clock.

already spoke a millon words :)

hahahhahahahah, i'm laughing my ass off now..
my friend a year 1 asked me about joining the Sports Science Academy,
and she thinks she has to write an essay to get in. So she keeps asking me what to write and how..

ENWEI!(: It's Okay (: says:
*got meh ?
*dont have la
*THEN HOW HOW HOW HOWH OHWO HOW HOW ?
I'll chase you just to hear you say. says:
*you're christian?
ENWEI!(: It's Okay (: says:
*yep
*WHY WHY WHY WHYWHY ?
I'll chase you just to hear you say. says:
*close your eyes
*clap your hands togehter
ENWEI!(: It's Okay (: says:
*HAHAHA
I'll chase you just to hear you say. says:
*and pray to god for an answer
ENWEI!(: It's Okay (: says:
*OMG
*i really did that lei
*HAHAHAHA!
I'll chase you just to hear you say. says:
*that's how

HAHAHAHAHAH..I SWEAR THAT IS EPIC!!!
she ees so kewt! lulz..
ok that aside, i jogged today..wooooo~
nice run..

its when you read back and felt the happiness that was once around.
then you come back to reality and know...

know that it's all in the past and will never happen again.

??

*RARE*

VINISE, says:
*promise yourself to be strong that nth can disturb your peace of mind . Look at the sunny side of everthing and make your tiny bit of optimism come true . press on to the greater achievements in the future . stay back in school to give so much time for the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticise others . alright lex ? =D i feel smart .

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~
thanks vinise *shy*
but i'm alright. just whining about stuff, nothing I can't handle.

had a workout session with caromes today..
i almost died, ask me exercise..i so long never exercise liaozxzxz..
i feel like vinise..HAHAHAHAH..joking..
after that we caught dinner and discussed on work professions and ethics.
all the way from dinner, during our walk to interchange as well.

i think i roughly have a program up for the DOAL 1 day program for year 1s.

Got some stuff that really cracked me up.


this one with relevance to the recent swine flu outbreak.


this with relevance to lesson time, a little classroom humor.

WHOOOOOO!! HURRAY TO THE FIRST TIME I DID NOT HAVE TO STAY BACK IN SCHOOL SINCE SCHOOL STARTED!!!
WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~
6TH MAY 2009 YO~
but it doesn't very much make any fucking difference.
oh yeah, i have to drop the Culinary Science and Kitchen Operations module because its not in my DOAL graduation criteria, kind fucked up eh the school?
lol. shan't say much bout it.
go with the flow, and i will grow..hahahahah..

i've been staying back EVERY fucking DAY after school since it started.
sad to say,
i are fucking tired of my year 3 life.
I have no fucking discipline on myself and its taking a toll.
i feel like breaking down, not crying, but like a machine breaking down.

it's been a week since i last updated.
nothing much has been happening except, i ran outta fish food and I'm PROCRASTINATING to buy their food. But lucky for me, its a planted tank(so its self sustaining, i think) and hell if I'm living inside i'll tell you what i have in there to eat when there's no food dropping from the skies(for the fishes that's the case).
Hung out with my buddies over the long weekend, 5 days. And it flew by, i'm having lessons tomorrow already. I wanna go on IIP(attachment) soon, but damn I'm going to hongkong.
I'm looking forward yet I'm not. Get it?

been listening to Metro Station's songs these days. Kelsey, Now That We're Done, Tell Me What To Do and True to Me. Then i just started playing MouseHunt on facebook today.
Life is interesting yet a bore. Life is such an irony.
Oh yeah, i cleared my Life Saving 1 2 3, next up Bronze Medallion. Just drown me can liaozxzxz..
Nothing much has been happening, all i know is that my year 3 is fun yet truckloads of reading.
Pam gave me a C. She noticed the problem which i have noticed myself too. Gotta work on overcoming it. Damn. When you're young you always wanna be older, now that you're older, you wish the yesteryears will be there for you once again.
some will tell me "Tell me about it". Well, live life as it is, i've always been the sort where i take life as it comes.

Here's a poem that my facilitator, Pamela Teo, introduced to us, her class.
She is one hell of a facilitator, could say she was the one who raised me, in terms of my studying spirit.
by the way, its titled The Road Not Taken
Here goes the poem, makes one think

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,
And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.
I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


here's where i got my first C, so far from Pam this semester.
don't get me wrong, i wouldn't look at this as a fall, instead i find that Pam has given me insights to work on which is very much useful in life.


and here's a picture of SHL student leaders.
try and find me, its gonna be pretty hard. Unless you have my facebook, and that's against the rules!
haaa, pretty long post with lots of ramblings about nothing.

I've been staying back in school like everyday since school reopen. So far, i wasn't in school only on friday.
Gee, really busy uh? Seems like it, but as compared to some others i guess mine is like minimal.
Synergy Committee, so far i have 1 project at hand i think, to plan a 1 day programme for DOAL year 1 students.
Had the SHL gathering camp today, and for some reasons, our project is put on hold for the time being. Politics are brought in and well, the one in charge is kinda rigid and we have other factors to "blame". I don't wanna mention so much, we're all under the same committee and i don't want bad blood. Some of us are course mates or friends.
Hopefully things turn out well, i don't want Ben's efforts to just die out like that.
i guess we're just a bunch of SHL students who want to see things in our school become better than it is.

HERE'S MY FAVORITE CAMPER FROM ST HILDA'S!!!
VINISE KWA(the one on the right)~
ain't she cute?!



anyone who feels otherwise can bring it up to me!
p.s she's single.

wah riaoooossss..got A for my Outdoor Leadership, B for my Challenge Course Management and an A for my Culinary Science and Kitchen Operations for the first week..
and i wanted straight As for the first week, but guess CCM was very huhhhhh for me..

basket, i thought the 2 days i would get to rest, end up i have to head back to school last thurs to settle things. At least friday i got to rest, think next week i gotta come back somewhere in the 2 days of my off days too.
busy busy busy bee.

shucks, i can't turn up for cheryl's performance at the TRCC on monday, cus classes are at bukit timah dairy farm.
so many things to do on monday. Supposed to have the NS talk, then go for cheryl's performance then have meeting for Synergy IG MC on monday. but then i'll be at bukit timah, tmd.
supposed to hang out with the guys today at parkway parade pool there. But ended up hanging out with Vinise. and i told nicole i went for a date with Vinise.
heh heh heh..dumb ass..LOL!

here's an epic something.

http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/photo.php?pid=30187805&op=1&o=global&view=global&subj=669650698&id=1025797180
=x

With FOP 2009 coming to an end, not entirely the end because i still have my shitload of logistics to clear up and i don't exactly have a partner in reality, in name yes, in reality no.
It was my first time inside a planning committee for something so big, wasn't the best of all first time experience but shouldn't be the worst either. Sad thing i started out too late, kinda don't wanna do all these stuff already, got pretty much on my hands with FYP reading and courses to take up. shucks. I heard i'm in the Synergy IG MC already, and that was like so long ago when i wanted to be inside.

So well its the start of a new semester, a whole new 3rd year, my final year in DOAL(time flies huh).
There's plenty of reading for FYP to do and I'm pretty lagged back, guess i don't have the discipline to prioritise myself properly. Damn, I'm afraid i might get lagged behind my projects and end up retaining another year just to do my FYP and/or PP.
oh well, this is one of the times i feel stressed out. wow.

Besides all those, today being the first day of school, or rather yesterday since its already 12.47am in the tuesday morning. Lessons on Outdoor Leadership was confusing but beneficial, but still have to sort out some stuff, again Pamela is my facilitator. So I'll be having Challenge Ropes Course Management later on with Tham Ying Wai~
hahahahahaha, i wonder what he has up his sleeve, sometimes i really can't figure him out. Me thinks he has split personality..shhhhh..



Here's a picture of me laughing away in uhhhmm..., joy? shock? touched?
i look like i'm crying though, my buddies surprised me so much i was just muttering what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck all along.


here's to us~

my present from nana!!
Be Street Smart in CyberWorld!!
HAHAAHAHAHA..its kinda irritating..
i can't use the @cash so i gave it to my friend..maple's getting a hold on my life.

hhahaha, lydia gave me this for my birthday.



well, it was a....uhhhmmm..
i have nothing to say about 13th april. LOL.
oh well well well,
heh heh heh, i've got news...I HIT LEVEL 33 ON MAPLESEA!!
first time sehhhh, all my other characters just died halfway after i quit on them.
shucks, i gotta be in school by like 7.30am for FOP, wtf...

alrighty then, sia laaaa..yide still haven't send me the pictures he snapped of me/us on 12th april where they surprised me when i was half naked. LOL.
ciaozxz..

The night before they lied to me about going to their grandparents house. I believed.
Then today he called me up at 1730hrs, waking me up from my sleep, asking me to go into maple's FM so he could pass me mana exlixirs or something. So i woke up and went to my laptop and switched it on. After sometime then i went into maple.
Then suddenly they sorta barged into the room with me topless and using my laptop.
They snapped pictures of me topless looking stunned.
They made me blow out the candles and hold onto a Crumpler: The School Hymn.

ITS MY BIRTHDAY.
and who are they?
They are the bestest friends I could have, Yi De, Alvin and KangWei.
Its been 7 years as bestest friends and still carrying on.
and we finally have a proper group shot even though its just in my house.

Happy birthday to me, but most importantly,
happy me having the best of friends :))

its been like a maplestory spree with the guys these days..
6 hours of mapling??!! wow...
hahahhaha..



i wanna whack Stumpy again..

i've been mapling and playing Company Of Heroes for the few days..
new screen came, i mean for my laptop. they just replaced the inner component. much better, but this isn't a glossy screen, its a matted screen. oh well, the same..


MAPLESTORY

oh yeahhhh,
happy birthday Vinise!
*RUNS AWAY SCREAMING ITS COMING TO GET US!!!!*

haaa, went out with the usual buddies to catch a movie today. Caught the Shinjuku Incident, and the story is ok but..some things have a head but no tail and a tail without any head in the movie..

took a few pictures as usual, they're on facebook.







bloody unglam


i swear i'm gonna get my revenge when one day they're dying to pee and i'll snap away
*shutter-happy*


tata for now~

i've been watching Two and a Half Men for like the past 1hr+, think 2 hours..hahahah..
and i'm eating milo powder because i have nothing else to chow on..
oh well. gonna go out in like...8hrs time or so..
HAAAAA, long way to go?

oh oh, did i add in I'm laughing my ass off at near 3am over the clips.

Woahh, went kayaking from CAMELOT today. tiring shit.
but not as bad as the one in ubin. Now i know how i should paddle already i guess.
hahahaha. well well well, i'm gonna have my laptop serviced tomorrow, hopefully.
shucks. i'm tired like nuts, been having water activities so much such that i feel water logged.
HAHAHAHA. omg, bel and i did something like DAMN dumb and like the odds of it happening are like :s, we sms-ed each other AT THE SAME TIME to play an april fool's joke one each other, and we were laughing our ass off like fug seriously. hahahahha..
life's a bore. but oh so much of fun.

Is a cup half filled or half empty?
Is your life halfway through or halfway done?

an ephinany:
after all, i'm just a passer by in your lives.
i'll probably move on after doing more. i wouldn't change much.
perhaps help a little.

talking to the little few punk asses from st hilda's make me feel old.
i miss those days, the carefree days of yesteryears which seem like yesterday.


some bugger is sure to laugh at this.




"when everything seems to be flashing by, know that you'll always have your best buddies standing by with you through it all."


"put your heart in everything you do, be the best you can be. Realise that there are things outside our control but how we react / respond is within our control. The star in you has already started shining, maintain the flame and let it shine permanently."

just came by this comment once again from my previous post, a facilitator/teacher of mine wrote this to me. well, i can feel she has great faith in me in becoming a great outdoor leader, and i hope i meet up to my own expectations. i still have plenty loads, serious loads kinda loads to learn.
I like to dream really big i admit, but I falter easily too, lets hope i would have the will to go through it all.
i don't believe in religions and such to help me, i believe in just me, me making it all happen for myself to make things happen for others. To just have faith in myself and those who help me grow. Comprende??
hahaha.

Nicole says:
*Im just confused ! tats all !
*...-.-
*is not blur !
*is take a long time to understand !lols!
false pretense and an absent heart. says:
*W-O-L-S
Nicole says:
*?
*thats not even eng !
false pretense and an absent heart. says:
*spell backwards bodoh
Nicole says:
*LOL!
*SLOW !
*IDIOT!


the above conversation just happened between nicole.
epic.

NicoleTan = W-O-L-S
=DDD

FUCK YEAHHH..
new modem, faster speed.BUT, a faulty laptop..
fuckin' acer shit..zzzz..oh well, i gonna call them up and fug them upside down left and right and make them come my place to collect my laptop or repair it on the spot.

i don't know what else to say after here.HAHAHA, i'm gonna go do a programme with CC for one day.
once again, gotta read read read and pray to do a couple more camps before school starts, which would mean meeting new people, learning new stuff and $KA-CHING$..
win-win~



like a symphony of broken hearts.
and a bunch of killer farts~
HAHAHAHAHA, ok like wtf.

omg!! i'm so deprived of the internet :(((((
my life is in chaos!! haha..
that aside, i think these few days are crazy.. Saturday, swimming at pool. Sunday, Sentosa session. Monday, Life Saving 1, 2, 3. Tuesday, kayaking star 2 day 1..
I think I'm gonna be isabel's SUPER blackie already uh..

i'm tired tired tired, but still alright i guess.. so much to do in so little time..
oh well..

fwaaaahhh..stupid modem, keeps coming on and off. I can't wait for 24th and there'll be a new one coming in.
PROPER INTERNET USAGE. I swear technology is like girls, they're so bloody temperamental.

I need a haircut, i'm tempted to cut botak, like how i did in sec3 cus kena caught for having "long" hair..i'll see when i'm free and i'll go get one.

OHHHHH..i've settled on the watch i want :))))))))))))))))))))
the price is not bad as well..haha..
damn, i so wanna do one more camp first before everything starts, april is approaching which means school is here. I'm burned out for march so i can't do anymore camps.
I think is is weird, i dread packing for the camp but i wanna go for the camp and i drag.
shiat..well well well..
i've always been queer. cheerios~

fuck, i waited for the motherfucking 161 for one bloody fucking hour at woodlands interchange la.. in my fucking sweater and its so fucking hot..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

ah that aside, i'm happy things in the FOP committee are quite moving on and we're seeing shape coming out..though we still might have a couple of glitches here and there i believe its gonna be ok. So next thing up is my bloody FOP, i gotta read up on facilitation..help help help and even more help..god dammit..

ah i chanced upon this phrase, "Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met." Sounds nice, though emo..
well well.

p.s. 3F peeps who come here and read, i'm not that "holy"..i show one face in camp, and well..by nature i curse and swear alot and i'm not really a good boy..HAHAHA..i mean seriously, so pardon me for the fucks, and the other cursing and swearing and the middle fingers and such.

ciaozxzxzx..ah shucks, i really gotta read up..


great guy Clemence, met him doing St Hilda's camp.
sad to say he's leaving the world of camps to take up a HR job.
shucks.

me thinks vinise wanna date tim,
few in 3F knows!!

SPREAD THE WORD

p.s. i need a phucking escape :(

whoo boy..back from Fernvale Primary camp..first time doing a primary school camp..
well, wasn't so good at the start but gradually got the hang of it..
FOR A START, the kids called me small eyes, THEN, they called me uncle alex, THEN, they called me korkor alex, THEN i was promoted to being called ah gong or ah gong alex.
kids...gee, but a fun bunch i'd say..
I like their school vision - Dare to Aspire, Courage to Excel..

definitely a first of first experience here, many more to come..
great camp nonetheless..
i saw my calendar schedule and i'm so fucked for FYP, i haven't read up on anything.
this is called procrastination, shit siol :((((((
gaaaahhh, i'm so tired and everything..it seems like i hardly have time for myself anymore..
everything i do seems to be because i have to do it instead of because i want to do it.
not saying there aren't things that i like to do, i love doing camps and hanging out with my friends..
oh well, when you're young you wish you'd grow up faster. Now at this age, i wish i could turn time back.

shucks, listen to me whine on and on.

Let me light up the sky, light it up for you. Let me tell you why i would di e for you.
-Light up the sky, Yellowcard.

eh cheryl, if you happen to read this..i have writers' block..
HAHAHAA..so no stories :(((
another time perhaps...

Camp Syndrome:

Because you're given this particular team for the camp, you have no choice but to work with that team, thus you stay bonded as the team.
So for the duration of the camp, you perform tasks together, overcoming challenges together, bonding together as a team.
However, when camp is over, the choice is given back to you to be with a group that you feel you would work with best once again. You throw away your acceptance of the others' flaws, and form cliques once again.
You forget those that you worked with once before, and drift apart.

However, that would not always be the case. I can only say it's only up to you as a group to decide how you want things to turn out.


"Sure enough all good things must come to an end, but the end is decided by yourself."

The bestest of the best friends one could ever have.
Sec1~now and going on.





"The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart." ~Elisabeth Foley

"It is by chance we met, by choice we became friends, and on our own, best friends for life."

back from St Hilda's camp already..it's been the best group by far out of the 3 camps i've been in as a Group Instructor..

tired but, well great group so in a way they got me going. screw ups here and there in camp, but managed to tide through.
I feel sad for the kids who didn't have complete fun, bloody weather to blame and some other stuff.

went out my 3 bestest friends from secondary school today. been long since we last went out as a group.
treated them dinner at fisherman's wharf, hang around some more, bought a book, hang around some more and.....went home..

P.S. anyone from 3F group 17, if you happen to read this, remember what i said to you in our last debrief and share with your classmates. For 3F, remember what Clemence and I shared with you all, its up to you all to make it happen. Good luck in all!

it just kinda dawned on me that i might not be spending '09 Christmas and the welcoming of the new year in Singapore. Because of my overseas attachment.

gee.

this quote has a hold on me,
by Henry Ford,

“Coming together is a beginning. Keeping together is progress. Working together is success.”

its pretty true, guess its gonna be a personal favorite of mine when doing team building stuff.
=DD

Random post alert.




I really dig Nat Geo a lot, work for them in future maybe.^^
I have no idea weather I'm an outdoor pursuits guy or an outdoor education guy, maybe a little bit of both? This camp stuff seems tough work, but i'll pull through, if my body allows.
haaaa...




This is a shot from OFS camp A, pretty pretty campfire.
Memories, though not really THAT good but still memories i guess. Was the first time i was a group instructor, and apparently i wasn't too good for some people who seems to fail to be there when i perform and only appear when i'm not at standard.




Here is a shot of the setting sun along some expressway(i can't remember).



Well, i'm gonna be off to camp in a couple of days time and gonna be away for another 4 days. tired tired tired? Gonna meet new kids again, Leadership Camp for St Hilda's Secondary.
Have fun alex!!


gee, i can't forget your goofiness all of a sudden.

my back really hurts. well kinda.
better rest properly lest anything bad happens.
my throat had better be alright too.
now i'm thinking 7mths down the road,
when i'm leaving for HongKong, how are my fishes gonna survive..
i gotta teach my sister how to take care of my fishes.
shucks, i have so much running through my mind. How i wish i could once again have the days that are long gone, those free days where nothing else matters.

gee.

back from the OFS camp, 2 camps back to back..
tired nuts man..got to be group instructors for both camps..
some peoples eyes are just blind to see things, they only manage to see the bad side of people and they think they're fucking good..

back with injuries, and my muscles are aching, maybe i'm sick, no idea why..ah shucks, i don't know what else to say in my blog..
i feel so busy nowadays. FYP feels like a killer, i'm in FOP but apparently there seems to be nothing for me to do but they're spamming my email like nuts and camps are like..wooooboyyy..
have so much reading to do, i just feel so tired..

i'll update when i have things to say thennnn..nothing for now..
guess i'll keep myself busy to forget things.

for the first time in 6 years, i spent valentine with my friends and not a girlfriend!
went to grab fish n' chips with poly friends at Fishermen's Wharf, after waiting for them for an hour cus they were late.
met up with alvin and yide after that, they were studying but after my presence enlightened them that they were studying aimlessly, we decided to take a walk.
went to marina barrage to hang out for a bit, had some fun with yide's dad's DSLR.

i'm wanna get the Olympus shock & waterproof camera, think it cost $600. its the ideal camera for my field of work/studies. I'M WAITING FOR MY BIRTHDAY, haha..


this is the one!

anyway, gonna be away on camp till end of this week, probably friday i think?
i heard there's gonna be another camp next week 25th-27th february, not sure about that though.
Camps galore, guess this is an appetizer of how OBS is gonna be just that OBS is gonna be probably 10 folds more tiring and such. I still have OBHK to attend in october, shucks.

ohboyohboyohboyohboyohboyohboyohboy..
another 2 upcoming camps..a whole week burnt, in a good way..
at least i'm meeting the peeps from B.I.C15 once again =DDDDDDD

i'm still sick, shucks
at least the fever subsided.
Well, i really MUST save up, have to cash up alot for attachment at hongkong..
I can't wait, but then again I'm having mixed feelings.

I feel tired, about everything.
it seems like i have no time for myself. Everything is about something else.
shucks. I hope something or someone can make this all seem better and worthwhile.

back from BIC already...had little sleep towards the end but still, energy level kept high...
boo ya...
feels kinda great to be back home and camp kicked ass..

at the end of the camp, we had to eat a WHOLE RAW EGG. without the shell you think?
wrong, WITH the shell, you chew your way down..
booooo yaaaa baby, BIC15.

bing bang ba da boom!!!
busy busy busy..shiat.......................

no idea what to update about except i'm busy and i'm working for CampChallenge and last but not least I have great friends.
lols..

and here's Mimi(i think) the residential cat at CampChallenge.

oh never mind.
i always tell my friends we rarely argue,
but when we do it gets real big.
its getting outta hand.
since then we've decided, to each his/her own then.
we could never click. not now at least.

don't just simple assume nothing's going on me when you don't know anything.
just like how you accused me of flirting with your friend(or something like that) just because i added her on friendster.
i fucking hate it when i get accused of something that is not true.
i know you wanna get over me, then go ahead. get over me.
think of me as the heartless one, think that nothing ran through my mind on the 23rd, think that i'm not feeling crappy.
you're the one so eager to move on, go ahead. be my fucking guest.
you hardly know anything about my life, you don't even want in. don't say you do cus you very obviously don't.
go right ahead.

"put your heart in everything you do, be the best you can be. Realise that there are things outside our control but how we react / respond is within our control. The star in you has already started shining, maintain the flame and let it shine permanently."

=DDDD

if chocolates could mend broken hearts,
sorry(s) could mend broken words &
we have no fears.

wouldn't it be better?


i miss these escapades that were once mine,
the quiet moments where one could just sit down and listen to the wind blow.






happy times.

shucks, gave school a miss today...
damn tired no idea why, gotta tune my body to have less sleep.

Joined the gang to go climb at Yishun Safra in the evening.
not bad climb i'd say, but once again, climbing isn't top on my agenda.
so well, was okok i guess.
so now my palms smarting a little but still ok.
and well, just when i need to save, the need to spend keeps coming up..
fugggg :(

oh yeah, i'm working for CampChallenge, i think.
HAAA!!
first assignment's 29th of Jan, with NYP kids.
Well well, we'll see how it goes.

cheerios~

fuggggg uhhhh..
i feel so distant from myself, getting so caught up with everything that's going on around...

i need some quiet time, i know a quiet place but its far away.
shucks.
Its not what others expect of me rather what i expect from myself.
cliche~
hahahahahhaha..ah damn.

gimme a break bitch ass probation.
=((((

remember this little red words?
read it,
from this moment onwards.
you and i are through.
i don't care about you, you don't care about me.
even if i die, don't fucking come to my funeral,
if i get married, you're not invited.
if i'm famous, you'll be a nobody to me.
you're just a passing chapter that has come to an end.
you shouldn't even be reading is cus you never existed.

WHOOOOOOBOYYYYY..
fyp team is fucked..kinda..more or less..
no idea..

anyways, got posted to Outward Bound Hong Kong...
not want i wanted...BUT, like i've said in my interview, there's always a learning aspect in every point. i'm still happy nonetheless, and well..
gotta save up!!

i'm experiencing burnout..fug =(((((

Shit, blogger si bei irritating..
or is it just me that's sleepyy..hahha...

fuck fuck fuck fuck,
i just feel like quitting school and running off to join OBS after something just happened.
oh mee gawd..think i'll head home early tomorrow since the others are training with the trekking team...kinda lazy..
no idea..see how in the morning..

i wouldn't wanna debate on further on our dream professionalism lest it ends up in another epic battle.
its not worth it.

in fact, I think i've decided to drop what i've been holding on.

So far so good for everything I'd say...
took part in the recent 2009 Climb.Max, my team clinched a strong 2nd place..yeaaaaa, we're climbers...not...HAAAA..
the only reason why we got second this time round was because there was only 3 teams that took part in the team climbing category. Wasn't like the last time i guess cus its on different days and everyone's too busy with their own stuff...

well, this week has been a packed one for me. shucks, i've been so caught up with school stuff and such. haven't been meeting up with my buddies for sometime. damn.

the next great thing that's happened, well, is the interview that went on today. I'm pretty sure it went on well, though it sounds really shit job but hell yeah, i'm ready for it. Sure saying that i can do it i can do it is easy, doing it would be another different thing. I gotta control emotions, prioritize activities, and plenty to go along with that. Its gonna be a whole new thing.
To take things to a higher level and to challenge myself.
I never was scared to dream big, was only afraid of the fall. But with every fall, i'll learn from my mistakes. Oh well, wish me luck~
I'll need all the help i can get.




Reach high for the skies and the stars shall be yours.
shan't get my hopes too high then.

shucks, i'm darn sleepy these days...
and that isn't good for those who are around me, i snapped once 2 days ago already..

so Open House is in session currently, i dropped by to help out...and the grand finale was to talk to Lee Hsien Loong's brother who is the Board of Governor or something like that...
It went well i suppose, got quite a number of people to look through our booth though it still seemed quiet as compared to the other SHL booths.
Next day would be on the Saturday...hope it goes well~

overseas attachment interview coming up on friday..I'm not really nervous about it, curbed the habit of getting nervous, now i know, slow and easy and calm gets it all done.

ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....
i can't think of anything to blog about except that i've been hanging out with my coursemates and feeling damn sleeping..
hahahahahahha..shucks...

you can't do it alone.

wowwwww...
i cannot believe what i was doing when 2009 kicked in...wowww...

i was.......sleeping...
i only woke up at 1am...to welcome the new year...and an empty stomach...
HAHAHAHHAHA..

shit, then i didn't sleep at all,
shucks..then i went to meet yanni at yishun for breakfast.
my first breakfast of 2009!!

damn, she's a crazy girl when she's low on sleep, seems like she was drunk or high on something...
after which, headed home respectively...and i went to meet gerri for dinner.
great start to the new year, OAL friends.
i miss my buddyboys though, Alvin, Yide & Kangwei..i'm gonna set aside 1-2 days a week to meet them riaos!! could never let friends like them go.

gonna go slack...who wants pictures of crazy yanni in the morning with the lack of sleep(pm me on msn)....HAHAHAHHA, i'm so dead..

my new year resolution: Strive hard in what i'm studying now & go adventure crazy :)))